I’m thinking about switching away from tumblr; perhaps start fresh with a wordpress page.
Perhaps I’ve taken the easy way in “keeping up” with people: FB, twitter, tumblr, gchat, skype. A few words here, a couple of encouraging phrases there. A single inquiry, but never much more.
There’s too much to care about and for. Even after 26 years, I still don’t think I’ve managed to figure everything out, where to put my priorities, what are realistic expectations, how to cope with disappointment, and how to have hope when times seem so bleak.
I was doing a bunch of title exams today with my mind wandering as usual. I type the year “2004” into the title exam report and I sat there trying to remember what my life was all about in 2004. I guess I can always whip out my old resume and look at some of the achievements or things I’ve done that were productive, but so many other things happened that probably subconsciously made a part of who I am today.
2004 was eight years ago.
Eight years ago.
I tried to reflect about my life in undergrad: a novice in the industry. Very unsure of who I am and what I wanted.
Eight years ago.
There’s this great phrase on the internet, words of wisdom so to speak, but not entirely sure who was ever in a position of knowledge and experience to give it as such: “Hit the gym, delete facebook, and lawyer up.”
It’s given whenever someone is going through a bad relationship or is contemplating divorce. I think it means, “You’ve been content with yourself for far too long, stop living vicariously through other people’s lives and experiences, get the right people behind you so you can march forward.”
Except if I were to chant it to myself, it just means I need to be a stronger, wiser, more knowledgeable professional. To invest in my license and be the best attorney that people and corporations want.
I had to go for a two mile run today. I didn’t receive any bad news directly, but I just felt bad because I feel like I was left out. I’m probably reacting prematurely and should wait until I actually receive the bad news, but it kind of hit me tonight. Ran outside; pored some sweat onto my clothes, and ran further than I ever have so far in 2012.
